I've been advised (by the one person who reads my blog) to update this more frequently. Due to the fact that the world revolves around her, I am compelled to grant her request. Gosh...since last time I wrote in this thing a lot has happened. So...i will daily give a brief summary of what's been happening. Today: Homegroup.
I have been asked to take over my previous position as a homegroup leader. I stepped down a little more than a year ago due to a fall into sin due to idolatry in my heart and brokeness in my soul. I am unsure if I will take the position because I want to make sure that my heart is resting in a place of intimacy and reliance in the Holy Spirit. We have more to offer our brothers and sisters in the church and we have more to offer the world the more we spend time in His presence. It's imperative for leaders to be intimately close to Jesus. Before taking the position, I must take a close introspective look at my time, and see if there are some things that I have put more time or energy into other than God. It's not about perfection or performance, it's about devotion. And it's not even that my devotion wins over God's favor. My best actions and most holy moments do not merit God's favor, yet His grace is extravagant! When we realize how much God has given to us, in His grace, compared to what we deserve, when we realize how much we owe Him...it moves us to labor to serve God. Not in order to pay Him back, but to show our gratitude for all He has done.
There is much going on in me right now. Some expectation, pain, joy, frustration, hope, disappointment, confusion...much of which i will delve into in the next couple of blog entries. Hopefully then, i will have caught myself up in catching you all up!:)
