much much too busy for you!

All right...it's four in the morning, so i'll make this quick. If you have faith for something (ie. healing), that faith will yield hope inside of you. When you have that hope, it's tough to move on with your life until you see that which you had faith for...You know, it is almost damaging to have faith anymore because of the way it sickens one's heart when they get let down. "Hope deferred makes the heart sick." Perhaps that is because we put our hope in the wrong thing? Yet, if we are hopeful of something that is Scriptural and God's heart, then...don't we have reason to hope for that? The only other thing i need to say is about feeling overwhelmed. It's crazy, perhaps the first time in my life i feel overwhelmed, but yet i am still not feeling stressed. It's like, God gave me such a soft heart emotionally so that i can feel everything so deeply. Yet, when it comes to being busy and having tons of things on my plate, i just roll with the punches and let things go where they will...even if i feel overwhelmed...weird. So, the majority of my "free time" is going to corresponding with people through email and getting some views straightened out in my head so that i can start researching them. These are on my list: 1) healing. how it takes place. dependant on holy living for holy power, or is it a faith and reliance upon God which we don't utilize? 2) How firmly does sin have a grip on us. is it's "strangle hold" on us reality or a lie from Satan to deceive us into thinking we are in bondage (and there's no way out). 3) Gregory Boyd. What is God's will and how often is it done? How much of God's hand is present in the world today? In everything? Does He work EVERYTHING out for an ultimate good? 4) Intimacy with God. In the old testament there were prayer meeting tents where people would meet and the cloud of the Lord would hover over it and His presence would manifest there. If there were such a place like that today, floods of us would go there to meet with God. One problem...after the new covenant, we are promised so much more than that. We are supossedlygiven full access to His presence through this covenant. We're missing something. When the veil was torn, not only did everyone now have access to God, but an even better picture is that now God burst out of the holy of holies so that He could be in our presence. If that's His heart why aren't we experiencing His presence in more fulness?